Ruined

You ruined me.
I was made of ice
You touched my skin
and made me melt
My heart was stone
You broke the spell
then asked me how it felt
I had no feelings
I didn’t care
A shell of a person
with no emotions
and a string of diversions

And you asked me how it felt?

I was scared
I was bruised
I was broken
I was used
(but I didn’t want to be in love)
I was fine
I was done
I was in denial
I was ready to run
(because I didn’t want to be in love)

You ruined me.
You warmed my heart
You ruined me.
Broke my walls apart
You ruined me.
Made me feel again
You ruined me.
So how do I explain?
That I don’t want to be in love.

You ruined me.
And I fell.

I fell hard
Now nothing is as good
Nothing feels right
If it’s not you
You lit a spark inside
and now I hold this torch
That never stops burning
That burns to damn bright

And you ask me how it felt?

Like I can’t breathe
Like it will never be enough
Like this is something that I need
Like I am dependent
Like I am insane
Like I need to be defensive
Like I can’t control my brain

You ruined me.
You warmed my heart
You ruined me.
Broke my walls apart
You ruined me.
Made me feel again
You ruined me.
So how do I explain?
That I don’t want to be in love.

You ruined me.

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